To Sleep or Not To Sleep…

Since I was diagnosed, I’ve had a hard time sleeping. In the beginning, it was pure nerves about how long I had to live, what was treatment going to be like, and who I was going to miss.

I had a period of time last year, where I was in so much pain and was on so many drugs, I thought for sure I was going to die. However, the drugs forced me to sleep.

Now, I lie awake in bed because I’m afraid I’m going to miss something. Whether that something in on Facebook, Twitter or here. I also stay awake because I’ve recently been having strange dreams. Most have been about my past. They seem so real. Most are happy times, but some are pure horror.

I have no idea why this is happening and I refuse to ask the doctor for sleeping pills. I’m already on anti-depressants and anti-anxiety. I really don’t want to be on something else.

Anyway, I hope to write my dreams down and see if I can figure out what they mean. Stay tuned!!

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